I Don’t Deserve This

I think the most motivating, humbling thing that a person can experience is grace. When someone gives you something you don’t deserve. I think over the past 28 years I have become use to the food, clothes, house, car, and other things I have taken for granted. But there was one thing the Lord withheld from me, and with good reason, because I was not ready for it. A wife.

Still not ready for it, but the Lord is giving me the grace to learn along the way and accept the things I need to change. And He is giving Hannah the grace to put up with me.

The Lord has reminded me lately how everything we have is because of His mercy and grace in our lives. That without Him, we would have nothing. Not even life itself. While driving the other day the parable of the unforgiving servant came to mind:

Matthew 18:23-35

“For this reason the kingdom of heaven may be compared to a king who wished to settle accounts with his slaves. When he had begun to settle them, one who owed him ten thousand talents was brought to him. But since he did not have the means to repay, his lord commanded him to be sold, along with his wife and children and all that he had, and repayment to be made. So the slave fell to the ground and prostrated himself before him, saying, ‘Have patience with me and I will repay you everything.’ And the lord of that slave felt compassion and released him and forgave him the debt. But that slave went out and found one of his fellow slaves who owed him a hundred denarii; and he seized him and began to choke him, saying, ‘Pay back what you owe.’ So his fellow slave fell to the ground and began to plead with him, saying, ‘Have patience with me and I will repay you.’ But he was unwilling and went and threw him in prison until he should pay back what was owed. So when his fellow slaves saw what had happened, they were deeply grieved and came and reported to their lord all that had happened. Then summoning him, his lord said to him, ‘You wicked slave, I forgave you all that debt because you pleaded with me. Should you not also have had mercy on your fellow slave, in the same way that I had mercy on you?’ And his lord, moved with anger, handed him over to the torturers until he should repay all that was owed him. My heavenly Father will also do the same to you, if each of you does not forgive his brother from your heart.”

This season we celebrate that King who forgives. He came to earth as a baby, grew up, and delivered the world not through force but through sacrifice. By giving His life, Jesus gave His life blood in exchange for our souls rescuing us from Satan who by the power of sin and death had us bound forever. He raised His life, so by the power of His resurrection we may obtain it. We don’t deserve this. It is called grace.

And this grace is free to all who believe in Jesus and call on His name, declaring that He is Lord. King of Kings, the Son of God, Messiah and Savior of all mankind.

It is the season of forgiveness, really. I was watching Home Alone , the first one, which is probably the most epic Christmas movie ever (although there a few good ones out there). And there is a scene in a church where Kevin confronts the old man he is afraid of. In that conversation Kevin finds that the old man is really not that scary, and quite human. He has some unforgiveness with his son, and  innocently Kevin suggests he should probably do something about that. Like the parable of the unforgiving servant, there are situations and times where we tend to lose focus on the grace God has given us, and fail to give that grace to others.

If we have been forgiven, how much more should we forgive others?

And in this season of joy, good tidings, peace on earth and good will toward men, it seems in order to survey the landscape of our lives and forgive those who have hurt us. And also, to ask for forgiveness from those we have hurt. We have all been hurt, and we have all hurt someone else. As we celebrate Jesus this season, we emulate Him best when we forgive as He forgave.

Merry Christmas!

The Savior as come, and He is coming again!

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